When you least expect it

One of the things I'm slowly learning about my anxiety is what triggers it and when to expect it. For instance, there's usually some anxiety around some kind of confrontation or confession, and there is always some around traveling. My therapist also thinks (and I agree) that I'm more susceptible when I haven't been doing … Continue reading When you least expect it


Anxiety check list

One of the things I'm really struggling with is remembering - while I'm in the middle of a storm of anxiety - that I actually know a lot of things that I should be doing. It's so hard to move past that initial self-talk of this is horrible I hate this this needs to stop and … Continue reading Anxiety check list

The story I’m making up

My sister and I went to see Sisters this weekend, and it was awesome. You should go. There's a moment where Maura (Amy Poehler) and James (Ike Barinholtz) are alone together and Maura suggests that they share their fears. The first time, they say superficial fears. Then they do it again, and they share what they're really … Continue reading The story I’m making up

Chris Traeger is my spirit animal

Can we just talk about how wonderful it is that the character of Chris Traeger exists? Seriously. Let's just stop and think about this for a second. Chris Traeger has ambitions and a strong sense of self. He is loving, loyal, and considerate beyond measure. And his journey through therapy and dealing with his anxiety … Continue reading Chris Traeger is my spirit animal

Anxiety is my superpower

The dude said the titular phrase to me on the phone the other day, and it was like my brain lit up. Mind. Blown. I spend a lot of time thinking that my anxiety sucks and it's awful and I hate it and why am I like this and why can't my brain work properly. … Continue reading Anxiety is my superpower

Talking to my anxiety

So, I'm back at work. I'll be honest. There was a good hour this morning where I seriously thought about not going in; but I'm trying to practice some of the things I've been learning in therapy and through reading Don't Panic, part of which is being intentional with the way you talk to yourself. My … Continue reading Talking to my anxiety

Sometimes letting people see you be broken is the best thing you can do.

I ended my post yesterday with that, and I've been thinking about it ever since. During one of my many cries yesterday, I was on the phone with the dude, who is basically the best person ever, my best friend, and my absolute favorite. I was telling him about my day and about my students … Continue reading Sometimes letting people see you be broken is the best thing you can do.