One of the things I'm really struggling with is remembering - while I'm in the middle of a storm of anxiety - that I actually know a lot of things that I should be doing. It's so hard to move past that initial self-talk of this is horrible I hate this this needs to stop and … Continue reading Anxiety check list
My sister and I went to see Sisters this weekend, and it was awesome. You should go. There's a moment where Maura (Amy Poehler) and James (Ike Barinholtz) are alone together and Maura suggests that they share their fears. The first time, they say superficial fears. Then they do it again, and they share what they're really … Continue reading The story I’m making up
Can we just talk about how wonderful it is that the character of Chris Traeger exists? Seriously. Let's just stop and think about this for a second. Chris Traeger has ambitions and a strong sense of self. He is loving, loyal, and considerate beyond measure. And his journey through therapy and dealing with his anxiety … Continue reading Chris Traeger is my spirit animal
The dude said the titular phrase to me on the phone the other day, and it was like my brain lit up. Mind. Blown. I spend a lot of time thinking that my anxiety sucks and it's awful and I hate it and why am I like this and why can't my brain work properly. … Continue reading Anxiety is my superpower
So, I'm back at work. I'll be honest. There was a good hour this morning where I seriously thought about not going in; but I'm trying to practice some of the things I've been learning in therapy and through reading Don't Panic, part of which is being intentional with the way you talk to yourself. My … Continue reading Talking to my anxiety
I ended my post yesterday with that, and I've been thinking about it ever since. During one of my many cries yesterday, I was on the phone with the dude, who is basically the best person ever, my best friend, and my absolute favorite. I was telling him about my day and about my students … Continue reading Sometimes letting people see you be broken is the best thing you can do.
Awful. Awful, awful awful. When I woke up this morning, I thought, hmm. Still anxious, but less. Maybe today will be ok. Fast forward a few hours to lunchtime when two of my students walked in on me sobbing at my desk, and then a few hours later to me leaving work early, which is something … Continue reading A terrible horrible no good very bad day