Trip day 4

Just a quick update: we made it to the dude's parents' house last night. When I walked into that bathroom to get ready for bed, I felt - for what I think is the first time - how truly different I am from when I was here two years ago. Of course, it helps that … Continue reading Trip day 4

Trip day 2

We got to Raleigh late last night, and went straight to bed. I don't think I woke up once during the night. But this morning, well, anxiety had other ideas. It woke me up with a jolt and an immediate feeling like I was about to unravel. The thing about anxiety is that it makes … Continue reading Trip day 2

Trip day: departure

GUYS. GUYS. GUYS. I FEEL NORMAL. Seriously. Not even any tightness in the chest or feeling on alert, which are typically the symptoms that stick around longest. Ok, so, here's my morning so far: 6:55 am: wake up with some pretty intense tightness in the chest and a very strong feeling of being on alert. I … Continue reading Trip day: departure

Oh, hey, I know you.

Did anybody else spend this morning with a ball of hot scratchy anxiety in their chest? No? Just me? Cool. Let me back up. The dude and I (and the dog) are leaving tomorrow for Florida. We're going to spend two days driving down, then stay for almost a week, then spend two days driving … Continue reading Oh, hey, I know you.

Profile of a fellow anxiety sufferer

Today we're doing something a little bit different. While this blog will still mostly focus on my experiences with anxiety, I'm going to start interviewing other people who deal with anxiety and posting it here every so often. Partly this is because my experience isn't universal, and there are definitely things about me or my … Continue reading Profile of a fellow anxiety sufferer

Anatomy of a panic attack

There is a subtle but important difference between the triggers and underlying causes of anxiety, and sometimes it can be hard to recognize this difference without help. Triggers are usually small, specific instances that put you on alert. Underlying causes are more about why you're feeling the anxiety - what you're actually thinking about. Clues to these can often … Continue reading Anatomy of a panic attack

When you least expect it

One of the things I'm slowly learning about my anxiety is what triggers it and when to expect it. For instance, there's usually some anxiety around some kind of confrontation or confession, and there is always some around traveling. My therapist also thinks (and I agree) that I'm more susceptible when I haven't been doing … Continue reading When you least expect it