Well friends, my streak of no panic attacks is officially over. I've had 2 in 24-hours and it. has. sucked. Let me explain. No, there is too much. Here's what's happening in my life right now: still wedding planning (August!), we're moving (in two weeks!), I'm having some feelings about my family (always), and the … Continue reading Panic! On my kitchen floor
So... The dude and I got engaged! I know. It's very exciting. And if you're wondering, we don't have a date yet. We were celebrating my birthday last month: I came home to a house with all of the chores done, he made me burgers(yum), and we watched some of the Great British Bake Off. … Continue reading Well, that was unexpected
Anxiety has been whirring in the background since I went back to school, and it's been especially tough since the dad passed away. It's the normal stuff: I can fall asleep but can't really stay asleep past 2am, headaches, tight chest when I wake up, the works. Usually by the time I'm done getting ready … Continue reading Sometimes it just is what it is; or, Lenny’s back!
Hi friends. I’m sorry I haven’t been writing much lately. I was working on a few posts and trying to decide which one I wanted to put up next, and then all hell broke loose. There are a bunch of really not great things happening, but what really turned things upside down is the loss … Continue reading The intersection of grief and anxiety
A couple of years back, I made my own weighted blanket to help with anxiety and the poor sleep that can accompany it. I love it; I love the fabric I picked, it was a fun project with lots of "help" from the dog, and it always helps me stay asleep when I'm having a … Continue reading Weighted Blankets, pt. 2
When anxiety first started to get really bad for me in 2014, I struggled with finding the words to describe what was happening to me. How was I supposed to explain the complete batshit craziness of what was happening? How was I supposed to explain that I was terrified for no reason? That I was … Continue reading Finding a vocabulary for anxiety
You know how you can have this picture of something in your head and when you get there it is that but also it's not and somehow you feel inordinately disappointed? That's me right now. I was really looking forward to this summer being super chill, and instead I'm wrestling with a lot of things … Continue reading On going back to therapy