Lenny, or: my relationship with anxiety

As you guys know, I've been struggling with anxiety for decades now. In the course of my journey with anxiety, I think pretty much every verb under the sun could have been used to describe my relationship to it. At one time or another, I have interacted with anxiety in the following ways(this is by … Continue reading Lenny, or: my relationship with anxiety

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Oh. It’s you again. Go away, anxiety.

You know what one of the most frustrating things about anxiety is? Every time I think I've got a handle on it, it's like awww, sweetie! That's so cute that you think I'll just stay quiet. Sometimes I wish anxiety was a person so I could punch it in its stupid face. I wrote about how … Continue reading Oh. It’s you again. Go away, anxiety.

How anxiety makes me second-guess my emotions

Recently I've had a couple of experiences where I've been feeling things way more strongly than I usually do. Some of this is in my personal life, some not. Some things shifted at work, and even though my work husband did me a solid and gave me a heads up about it before they announced … Continue reading How anxiety makes me second-guess my emotions

I don’t need you to manage my anxiety, but I do need you to be mindful of it.

One of the things about anxiety that's most difficult for me on a day-to-day basis is the rumination. While it's easy to explain to people how thoughts or topics get stuck in your brain, what's not easy to explain is why they get stuck there. Or how stupid you feel for not being able to let … Continue reading I don’t need you to manage my anxiety, but I do need you to be mindful of it.

Weekly Roundup 2.12.17

Some things: This meltdown guide, which is THE BEST simple and clear advice on how to be the partner of someone with anxiety, panic attacks, and/or depression(and is also generally a good guide for being a partner/human). The Wikipedia article on Nellie Bly, who exposed the awful treatment of asylum patients in 1887 and changed … Continue reading Weekly Roundup 2.12.17

Expectation vs. Reality

The thing that has always been hardest for me in terms of anxiety - and life in general, if I'm honest - is managing my expectations. I am terrible at this. I've been working on it for years, and though I'm better than I used to be, I struggle with it daily. It doesn't help … Continue reading Expectation vs. Reality

Sad Sunday

Oh guys. Yesterday was a doozy. I started out the day feeling ok, actually. I did all of my normal Sunday morning things: I walked the dog, did the laundry, had my bagel. But as the day went on, I just got more and more blah. I watched Top Gear (a favorite) but it wasn't making … Continue reading Sad Sunday