In trying to make more of a commitment to seeing my friends (hey guys), I've been thinking about what I want to say if the topic of anxiety comes up. I am fortunate enough to have a really supportive, empathetic group of people in my life, but I know that's not always the case. And … Continue reading Things to know if you know someone with anxiety
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Asking for help is hard
I want to start this post with a thank you to everyone who reads. Even if we don't talk about it - or maybe we do - knowing that you're out there reading and understanding is great. And maybe even this is helpful for you, I don't know. But just being heard is great. And … Continue reading Asking for help is hard
Or maybe not
I think the thing I love/hate about anxiety the most is how quickly it changes. For instance, yesterday, I was all super pumped about how well my anxiety checklist worked and how proud I am of myself for managing it. Today, I started my morning with an oversize dose of pepto bismal and am eating … Continue reading Or maybe not
Success!
GUYS. Something pretty damn cool happened today. First, you need a little context. So, NYC teachers get observed by the principal and/or assistant principal multiple times per year. Then we get rated according to a research-based rubric by a big education guru (hey Danielson), and that gets put into our file. At the end of … Continue reading Success!
Seeing it all come to fruition
My awesome sister is due to give birth in a month and a half, and last weekend, we threw her a baby shower. Since I'm her little sister and we're best friends and generally just love the crap out of each other, she asked me to host. Obviously, I did (and I did a kick … Continue reading Seeing it all come to fruition
Highly Sensitive People
I took the week off yoga last week, and boy was that an eye opener. I've known for a long time that yoga helps to manage the anxiety and panic attacks, and this year when school started I tried to really commit to a regular yoga schedule. Last week I thought I was getting sick … Continue reading Highly Sensitive People
Anxiety is a partnership
Lately I've been doing the Anxiety pack of meditations on Headspace, and something has clicked for me. It's not about making the anxiety feel consistent: a panic attack always feels this way, small anxieties always feel that way. Because it's not going to be like that. While there are commonalities - tingling and expansion in … Continue reading Anxiety is a partnership
When you least expect it
One of the things I'm slowly learning about my anxiety is what triggers it and when to expect it. For instance, there's usually some anxiety around some kind of confrontation or confession, and there is always some around traveling. My therapist also thinks (and I agree) that I'm more susceptible when I haven't been doing … Continue reading When you least expect it
Anxiety check list
One of the things I'm really struggling with is remembering - while I'm in the middle of a storm of anxiety - that I actually know a lot of things that I should be doing. It's so hard to move past that initial self-talk of this is horrible I hate this this needs to stop and … Continue reading Anxiety check list
The story I’m making up
My sister and I went to see Sisters this weekend, and it was awesome. You should go. There's a moment where Maura (Amy Poehler) and James (Ike Barinholtz) are alone together and Maura suggests that they share their fears. The first time, they say superficial fears. Then they do it again, and they share what they're really … Continue reading The story I’m making up
it's only fear 