I've written before about my love/hate relationship with anxiety: I love that it keeps me organized and conscientious of others and that it's heightened my sense of empathy. I hate that it makes me feel nauseous, that I can't always enjoy important moments, and that it makes some really simple things really difficult. My biggest … Continue reading Getting out from under
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Pilgrim’s progress
When I was younger, I absolutely loved Little Women. As in, read it more than once a year, felt Jo's anger and sadness every time Amy burned her book, cried every time Beth died, felt joy every time one of the sisters found their partner. It remains to this day one of my favorites. I remember … Continue reading Pilgrim’s progress
Spring cleaning
Let's just take a second and talk about how amazing sleep is. SERIOUSLY. I slept a lot last night and I feel way, way better. In therapy yesterday, we were talking about how the last couple of days have been and I was saying that I'm glad that the bad days are better and how in some … Continue reading Spring cleaning
The two mes
For a long, long time, I've felt like there have been two mes. One is a kind of persona; the other the expression of my internal life. We started talking about this in therapy yesterday, and it's been on my mind. Why are there two? Is one more authentic than the other? Are these different … Continue reading The two mes
Talking to my anxiety
So, I'm back at work. I'll be honest. There was a good hour this morning where I seriously thought about not going in; but I'm trying to practice some of the things I've been learning in therapy and through reading Don't Panic, part of which is being intentional with the way you talk to yourself. My … Continue reading Talking to my anxiety
Tools that have helped me
First, let me say that I am still very much in the process of figuring my anxiety out and finding the best tools to manage it. I've discovered some things, but I'm still working on the deeper issues and that will continue to take some time. That being said, I think it's important to share … Continue reading Tools that have helped me
it's only fear 