The last few nights/early mornings, anxiety has been bounding around in my brain like a kid on a sugar high. Hi! Hi! Can we think about this thing from five years ago? No wait, actually I want to think about this thing from 13 years ago that involved totally different people NO WAIT I want to think … Continue reading It’s not gone. It will never be gone. That’s ok.
Coping Techniques
Trip day 2
We got to Raleigh late last night, and went straight to bed. I don't think I woke up once during the night. But this morning, well, anxiety had other ideas. It woke me up with a jolt and an immediate feeling like I was about to unravel. The thing about anxiety is that it makes … Continue reading Trip day 2
Profile of a fellow anxiety sufferer
Today we're doing something a little bit different. While this blog will still mostly focus on my experiences with anxiety, I'm going to start interviewing other people who deal with anxiety and posting it here every so often. Partly this is because my experience isn't universal, and there are definitely things about me or my … Continue reading Profile of a fellow anxiety sufferer
Anatomy of a panic attack
There is a subtle but important difference between the triggers and underlying causes of anxiety, and sometimes it can be hard to recognize this difference without help. Triggers are usually small, specific instances that put you on alert. Underlying causes are more about why you're feeling the anxiety - what you're actually thinking about. Clues to these can often … Continue reading Anatomy of a panic attack
In defense of John Mayer’s music
UPDATE: I would just like to point out that I have a MAJOR bone to pick with John Mayer over his past comments about the women he's dated. People are complicated and he's one of those people that is simultaneously incredibly deep and observant and also totally tone deaf and problematic. I dislike cancel culture … Continue reading In defense of John Mayer’s music
Or maybe not
I think the thing I love/hate about anxiety the most is how quickly it changes. For instance, yesterday, I was all super pumped about how well my anxiety checklist worked and how proud I am of myself for managing it. Today, I started my morning with an oversize dose of pepto bismal and am eating … Continue reading Or maybe not
Success!
GUYS. Something pretty damn cool happened today. First, you need a little context. So, NYC teachers get observed by the principal and/or assistant principal multiple times per year. Then we get rated according to a research-based rubric by a big education guru (hey Danielson), and that gets put into our file. At the end of … Continue reading Success!
Seeing it all come to fruition
My awesome sister is due to give birth in a month and a half, and last weekend, we threw her a baby shower. Since I'm her little sister and we're best friends and generally just love the crap out of each other, she asked me to host. Obviously, I did (and I did a kick … Continue reading Seeing it all come to fruition
Anxiety check list
One of the things I'm really struggling with is remembering - while I'm in the middle of a storm of anxiety - that I actually know a lot of things that I should be doing. It's so hard to move past that initial self-talk of this is horrible I hate this this needs to stop and … Continue reading Anxiety check list
The story I’m making up
My sister and I went to see Sisters this weekend, and it was awesome. You should go. There's a moment where Maura (Amy Poehler) and James (Ike Barinholtz) are alone together and Maura suggests that they share their fears. The first time, they say superficial fears. Then they do it again, and they share what they're really … Continue reading The story I’m making up
it's only fear 